During the time I agreed to lead our
Wednesday night youth and the day I surrendered to the ministry, I was
attempting to mimic other youth pastors and their methods of ministry. I
really had no budget to work with and not much money of my own to invest.
What I did have I spent on trying to make our Wednesday night youth appealing
to our local students. Honestly, that was an epic
failure. God had called me into His ministry not my ministry
or the ministry of someone else. My failure was trying to fulfill and
mimic what others were already doing. I was not seeking what God wanted
to be done.
It is funny how we have it in our
heads that God needs all the fancy gadgets and latest technology to reach the
lost. The irony was in what I did have. The digital projector was
broken, I had no laptop, and the youth building was and still is the old church
with no pews. We did have an old pool table, a ping pong table and one
basketball goal. The floors were and still are bare. The walls are
just a plain white with grungy smudges everywhere. No fancy lights,
no fancy décor, no band, and no cool place to just hang out. What we had and
still have is the blah boring bare minimum, a scratchy sound system, and an old
school plastic sheet projector. Most youth would walk in and think
“really, are you for real!” and walk out.
In spite of all this, we are blessed beyond measure, we really are. Today we do have a working computer projector
and a somewhat working laptop.
After several weeks of leading the
youth, reality set in. God wanted something different than what I was
attempting to create and mimic. If He really wanted what I was trying to
do He would have provided for those needs. So the big question was; “What
was it that God had planned?”
The first night I led youth, there was
9 students in attendance. Several weeks later there were
12-15. Obviously something was wrong. Please do not be mistaken, it’s
was not about how many kids you can draw in and entertain. It is about
making an impact in the life of a student for Christ. If you have a
hundred or even a thousand and not one life is reached for Christ, then it is
all in vain. If you only have one and that one life is changed for
Christ, then it is all worth every effort you have made.
One fact I knew for sure was; we had
more than one in our community that needed to meet the Lord. I also realized
that what I was doing really wasn’t what The Lord wanted. The kids I was
ministering to were the kids of parents who had been attending our church for
years. They all grew up in the church and they were expected to be a part
of the youth group. Not that this was a bad thing, because it was
not. The problem was our youth ministry was bound by the walls and
membership of our church. God never intended it to be that way.
I began to pray faithfully, “Lord,
what is it that our youth need? How do you want me to lead and minister?”
As I became more faithful in praying and more in tune to listening to God’s
voice instead of making sure God heard my voice, I began to hear what He
desired. I began to realize that what God wanted was not entertainment it
was church. I began to see what God’s church looked like. It had no
walls or fancy comfortable interiors. God’s church was the people.
With that in mind, I began to focus on what we did have and not what I thought
we should have. I no longer sought after the images of other youth
groups; I sought after the images of Christ’s church and its purpose.
God began to put things on my heart
and my mind of what He wanted. It seemed like every time I asked He would
respond “Church!” As I would read His word and pray, I began to realize
what Church was suppose to look like and what its purposes were. When we make church what we want it to be and
not what God has called it to be it may look attractive and nice on the
outside, but in the inside, it is dead. In my next post I will share what
God showed me, and how He confirmed the purposes of His church.
The picture is of a church in Romania. the inside was absolutely gorgeous. The outside was surrounded by homeless people with great need. There is something wrong with that.
May my life be the proof and evidence of Christ’s love!
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